Today I took the kids swimming. I had to get in because Emma and Paul need to have someone 16 or older with them IN the pool. I pulled out my "fat" swimming suit that I wore when I was at my biggest before. It was tight! Tight!!! The shorts I wear with them, tight. Barely fit. Ugh! Well, lets just say I found my motivation for not eating crappy anymore. 189lbs was my weigh in this morning. Last time I weighed this much I was 9mths preggo. Not cool. Not cool. Tonight when I wanted to eat after dinner I made myself a cup of tea instead. It was actually perfect. Tricked my brain into being satisfied. Brock called and asked if I wanted him to bring home doughnuts and I said, "NO!". I want to want to play outside and in the pool and have the energy to do it this summer. I want to have the energy to be a fun mom. I used to have that and I want it again. Here's to my journey back to me! That is my goal!
